?

Log in

[icon] Inside The Mind of a Trekker
View:Recent Entries.
View:Archive.
View:Friends.
View:Profile.
View:DVD Wishlist. Facebook. My Space. Penny Arcade.
You're looking at the latest 10 entries.
Missed some entries? Then simply jump back 10 entries

Security:
Time:02:53 am
Yeah...

Took some time off from drinking..

back at it...

living life...

still kind of lonely

still happy I where I am though.

"but I ain't turning back to live that old life no more"

Life is very interesting.

Interested to see what comes next....
comments: Leave a comment Share

Current Music:A life Less Ordinary by Motion City Soundtrack
Current Location:United States, ,
Security:
Subject:"I think I can figure it out...
Time:12:52 am
Current Mood:tiredtired
Well....it's been years. Literally. How time flies when life is passing by. I am now the general manger of a restaurant. I have 27 people under me. Awesome place. Family owned and operated. I am like family. Good times had by all. I've been thinking about posting for a few weeks now....and as I finally have...I have very little to say. Life is short...enjoy as many moments as you can. Be as happy as you humanly can be.

...but I'm gonna need a little help to get me through it..."
comments: Leave a comment Share

Current Music:But Anyway - Blues Traveler
Security:
Subject:But anyway....
Time:04:02 am
Current Mood:drunkdrunk
"I lied and told her I loved her,
She didn't care, but anyway
I told her we'd still be friends,
And she didn't care, but anyway
I tried last week for to call her,
She wasn't home, but anyway
I think I'll spend my life alone,
I really don't care right now, but anyway

It's a state of affairs and a state of emotions
The kind of thing that you must understand
I tell you one thing; you tell me another
We walk away, maybe then shake hands

I'm quitting cigarette smoking
It's bad for me, but anyway
I don't think the TV was joking
When it told me this, but anyway
The newsman said not to sit on strange toilet seats
It's my life he's trying to save, but anyway
I found out that I've got eye cancer
Too many television waves, but anyway




It's a state of affairs and a state of emotions
The kind of thing that you must understand
I tell you one thing; you tell me another
We walk away, maybe then shake hands

Some day an answer will find us
Quite a long shot, but anyway
I think the past, the past is behind us
Be real confusing if not, but anyway
I put all my hope in tomorrow
It's gonna be great, I can tell but anyway
I see a new, a new day a dawning
I like to sleep late, oh well, but anyway

It's a state of affairs and a state of emotions
The kind of thing that you must understand
I tell you one thing; you tell me another
We walk away, maybe then shake hands
"
comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Invisible Monsters - Motion City Soundtrack
Security:
Subject:Invisible monster
Time:02:00 am
Current Mood:apatheticapathetic
Hmmm....

"Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, are you listening at all?
Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, are you listening to anything I’ve said?

It’s hard to believe I cannot exist without you.
As hard as I’ve tried, I cannot confess completely, yeah.
These words were not meant to induce acts of likewise behavior. (behavior)
It’s just part of the curse,
I’m just trying to stay alive.

Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, are you listening at all?
Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, are you listening to anything I’ve said?

It’s hard to admit, my weaknesses can consume me.
I search for the cure in the bottles of varied volumes, yeah.
The joke of it is I express myself without purpose
(a purpose for living)
Yet you devour my small bits
Of madness and make-believe.

Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, are you listening at all?
Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, are you listening to anything I’ve said?

If I can pretend, I don’t depend.
I can deny, deny denial.
Yet when push comes to shove and all the above,
I decide to live the lie.

Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, are you listening at all?
Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, can you hear me?
Woah woah, can you hear me?
Woah woah, can you hear me?
Woah woah, are you out there?
Woah woah, are you listening to anything I’ve said?
"
comments: Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Prelude/Angry Young Man - Billy Joel
Security:
Subject:I found that just surviving was a noble fight
Time:02:15 pm
Current Mood:numbnumb
Yeah so...first shift off of training was last night

did pretty well

Late night conversations with people I don't know from hundreds of miles away are nice

jamie and I are done...again....mother fucker

hmm...billy joel you seem appropriate again...thanks:

"There's a place in the world for the angry young man
With his working class ties and his radical plans
He refuses to bend he refuses to crawl
And he's always at home with his back to the wall
And he's proud of his scars and the battles he's lost
And he struggles and bleeds as he hangs on his cross
And he likes to be known as the angry young man

Give a moment or two to the angry young man
With his foot in his mouth and his heart in his hand
He's been stabbed in the back he's been misunderstood
It's a comfort to know his intentions are good

And he sits in his room with a lock on the door
With his maps and his medals laid out on the floor
And he likes to be known as the angry young man

I believe I've passed the age of consciousness and righteous rage
I found that just surviving was a noble fight
I once believed in causes too
I had my pointless point of view
And life went on no matter who was wrong or right

And there's always a place for the angry young man
With his fist in the air and his head in the sand
And he's never been able to learn from mistakes
So he can't understand why his heart always breaks

And his honor is pure and his courage as well
And he's fair and he's true and he's boring as hell
And he'll go to the grave as an angry old man

Yes there's always a place for the angry young man
With his working class ties and his radical plans
He refuses to bend he refuses to crawl
And he's always at home with his back to the wall
And he's proud of his scars and the battles he's lost
And he struggles and bleeds as he hangs on his cross
And he likes to be known as the angry young man
"
comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Movie: Boondock Saints
Current Location:Decatur, Ga
Security:
Subject:"When the moon hits your eye like a big pizza pie..."
Time:12:45 am
Current Mood:pleasedpleased
so...

I work at Capozzi's Ristorante.

It is a family run casual upscale Italian.

check out these reviews

http://atlanta.citysearch.com/review/47362464?reviewId=45105171

holy fucking wow...

I trained tonight (and will be tomorrow) as a delivery driver.

then I start monday with server training.

Be finished with that on friday night

and saturday night I'll be running food

I love this place

the work I did tonight was kind of boring and not to sound arrogant, but a little beneath me.

but none the less I love it.

This seems like my dream restaurant.

the food is awesome, the staff seem capable and reasonably intelligent.

the owner and his sons were there and apparently are a lot. This is a family run restaurant.

and the people who work there seem to treat each other like family.

I am so glad to be out of corporate restaurant hell, and into a small, well run place with an amazing reputation (and they seem to have earned it)

the place has been open for a little less than a year. They just got a liquor license and with school starting they are building their bar business.

I feel like this place will be good for me, and I will be good for it.

"That's amore..."
comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Still Talkin' to Ya by Cannonball Adderley
Current Location:Decatur, Ga
Security:
Subject:no quote - listening to jazz...
Time:12:06 pm
Current Mood:hungryhungover
So....

In in the end I got two jobs...one at some italian equivalent to moes...

and a job as a delivery driver and server at a locally owned and operated casual upscale iotalian restaurant within walking distance of house

guess which one I chose....haha

Brody and steve had some people from their philosophy department over last night

a housewarming if you will - which was a success

(steve by the way is my third roommate who brody found via the internet and his philosophy program. Real nice guy who did his undergrad in Delaware. Everything seems to be working out)

I was unpleasantly awakened by a text at 10am and then immediately pleased that the text was from the manager of the italian restaurant (capozzi's) telling me I got the job.

He then called me and asked if I could start tonight - fucking delighted to..I really am

Unfortunately I am hungover

my cure, since I have the morning, er afternoon, to get rid of it:

lots of coffee, scrambled eggs, toast, Alieve, and good jazz.

it seems to working

like I said, the party last night was great with one exception.

some idiot had issues with our driveway, tore up all the dirt (well it was raining, mud) on the sides of the driveway and kicked it onto the driveway with his f150 or whatever the fuck it was

I went down to inspect the damage, dark, wet, muddy.

I slipped in the mudd, face plant.

I was covered in mudd...literally covered.

I must have hit the ground hard because I have a bunch of cuts, and I feel like I got punched in jaw/cheek area - hard. which isn't helping the hangover.

but anyway....

well actually I guess that's it kids. I'm going to finish my coffee and play on the internet for an hour or two.

work at 3:30 today...sweet.

Be easy.
comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:I'm yours, - Jason Mraz
Current Location:Decatur, Ga
Security:
Subject:"I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror and bending over backwards.."
Time:01:12 am
Current Mood:thoughtfulthoughtful
So I'm sitting here...

a little upset over female issues

and I realize that it was supposed to be different up here

I got a job, yeah a shitty job, but it's still in food service

I moved up here to make myself happy

not sulk in self pity.

This was supposed to be a change

I moved up here to:

go and finish culinary school

work in the service industry not at applebees

be happy!

_____
very important that last one.

I made a change to make myself happy

I love what I want to do with my life

am I broke and in trouble with debt, yes...very much so.

but I moved up here in hopes to reduce my day to day stress

there is no reason to make myself miserable.

So even if I am taking a pay cut, and may or may not be working in the italian version of moes, fuck it.

Life is too short to worry about the day to day bullshit.

Life is supposed to be reggae, not emo.

Be easy my friends

EDIT: as I writing the last line I got a text saying that 4 of my friends from tally miss me. life is all about the connections you make people. Give people the benefit of the doubt, take 'er easy, live life full of love, and enjoy!

"just to try to see it clearer. But my breath fogged up the glass. So I drew a new face and laughed."
comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment Share

Security:
Time:12:37 am
I need a job!

also...I just got a twitter.
comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment Share

Current Music:Coma - Muse
Current Location:Decatur, Ga
Security:
Subject:"Hey such a mess but I don't care "
Time:02:56 am
Current Mood:awake
So for those of you who don't know

and to those who still read this

I moved to atlanta

I moved with one of my best and oldest friends, brody

this helps with the fact that I know practically no one and don't do well by myself

I will be starting culinary school on sept 28th.

it's expensive, and will be very tough

the program is rigorous. the program is 5 days a week, 7 hours a day.

starting at 7am

and I will have to work full time during it

I have yet to find a job although I have promising leads/interviews

it should be good for me

I was never driven at FSU...here I feel like I will be. Finally doing something that I want to do.

although moving made me broke, money is now tighter than it's ever been and the bills are piling up.

Between the debt and the boredom of no school, job, money, or friends I am going slowly insane.

But I hold optimism none the less. I will find a job. I will catch up on bills, make friends, and do well in school. In turn this will cure the boredom and everything that eats away at me.

Some have doubted me...fuck you.

...no...FUCK YOU to anyone who has ever doubted me. To those people who didn't even think I would make it out of tally, I wish you the worst.

to those who supported me, I love you, wish you the best, and I hope you know your support meant more to me than you could ever imagine. I love you.

Even though this transition has been hard...I am broke, have few friends, and am slowly going mad from the time on my hands and the the preceding facts - I am still confident in my success.

atlanta is a great city for my field

and I am the best in the industry I have chosen...I have the drive and the ability to do it, and do it well

In the meantime I am going back to my old vices while I have nothing to do.

Cheap booze and cigarettes. Don't judge me...this shit is not easy. And I have more than enough will power to take what I want from all of this.

on a side note I will be starting a food journal. I have been recording any awesome meal I make as of late. And they will be posted in said journal.

alright kids...be easy.

"simply because I can't wake and find it in me"
comments: 10 comments or Leave a comment Share

[icon] Inside The Mind of a Trekker
View:Recent Entries.
View:Archive.
View:Friends.
View:Profile.
View:DVD Wishlist. Facebook. My Space. Penny Arcade.
You're looking at the latest 10 entries.
Missed some entries? Then simply jump back 10 entries